So, my family has this thing.
Me and my siblings all mature ten times faster than other children our age. Some of us more physically than others, but all of us mature mentally and emotionally way faster than other children. Why? im not really sure. But its good sometimes, then other times its bad.
Last night i went to my best friend's house. Jenna is 18, and JUST GOT ENGAGED! I'm so happy for her and her fiance Stephen. Anyways, she threw a party for her coming back from Texas, and i was, of course, younger than everyone there by at least three years. However, i felt like one of the oldest! Now, this isnt exactly a bad thing. it may just mean that the people there were just having fun with life! The point is, years dont exactly matter. things like experience, observation, God's given wisdom, level of maturity, etc. are really the things that matter.
However, there are some times when I get to learn something. those times really open my eyes, and im glad for them.
That guy i was talking about? God is currently using him to teach me something. Of course, i wont know the full lesson once this is all over, but i will learn. We talked today. He likes me too (supposedly) but he's not ready for a relationship. I TOTALLY respect that. he gave me good reason. But, at the time, i was like, "come on now. really?" it wasnt till the end of the conversation that i really realized what he did. He listened to God.
Now you could be thinking, "wow anna. Thats not really a hard lesson to be given." or, you could be thinking, "I KNOW HOW THAT FEELS." Listening to God is a hard thing. especially at the age of fifteen. especially especially when youre dealing with a guy/girl situation. I had to listen to God a couple weeks ago for the exact same thing. (i fell for a non-christian and he asked me out and i had EVERY INTENTION of going out with him. But when the time came for me to answer the question, God was in my ear so strong that i just couldnt resist listening to Him. However, not without difficulty. i mean, how easy would it be for YOU to turn down a gorgeous, intelligent, smooth guy who's dancing with you at that particular moment with his lips ever so sweetly brushing against your ear as he asks the question????)
This guy i was talking about, turned me down, while he supposedly still liked me. Having that kind of connection with God inspires me. Its exactly what im looking for in a guy. (which made it even more heartbreaking...but thats not important.) And not even in a guy, but just a friend. someone to hold you accountable for your actions concerning God's plans for you. I want this in my life. To see someone my age, prioritizing the RIGHT things puts a smile in my heart. God shines through your face (this guy). As i said. I want someone like you to hold my heart...to teach it your ways. If its with you, and you are with God, then so am i. I always have been with God. But i feel like i could be even closer to him. I want to learn more. To confide in someone about the problems im going through. someone who may actually have answers for a change. Im proud of you. God is proud of you. And in time, if God wills it so, He may be proud of us.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Me? ha...funny story.
Teenage love interests are an interesting thing.
ive always been drawn to help people, know their problems, help them realize the lessons God is teaching them through their individual relationships. When i got to highschool i completely let people know i was there for them. i asked them how they were and they would tell me. i would tell them my opinion on the situation, and use the wisdom God has blessed me with. All i want is for people to be happy, while theyre doing the right thing.
Now, some people may say "so ill bet youre really good with your own relationships!" that is more or less true. For example, im going through a relationship right now that hasnt really started yet. i analyze things entirely too much. which the average person doesnt do. i was determined not to get hurt. this whole year has been full of heartbreak for me. i havent had a successful relationship in highschool yet, i must say. a few weeks ago i decided to not date people at school. outside of school is where relationships belong. i started liking this guy at my church. AgH. i dont really know what to do. theres so many mixed messages he gives me, and i cant tell if hes only playing. which is one thing i may never understand about the male mind. and im sure they dont understand that part of ours either. all i know is that theres rumors floating that he does like me, but theres also considerable evidence that he doesnt. i need to get things straight. prayer is welcomed. i hope i havent hurt anyone...
love, anna
ive always been drawn to help people, know their problems, help them realize the lessons God is teaching them through their individual relationships. When i got to highschool i completely let people know i was there for them. i asked them how they were and they would tell me. i would tell them my opinion on the situation, and use the wisdom God has blessed me with. All i want is for people to be happy, while theyre doing the right thing.
Now, some people may say "so ill bet youre really good with your own relationships!" that is more or less true. For example, im going through a relationship right now that hasnt really started yet. i analyze things entirely too much. which the average person doesnt do. i was determined not to get hurt. this whole year has been full of heartbreak for me. i havent had a successful relationship in highschool yet, i must say. a few weeks ago i decided to not date people at school. outside of school is where relationships belong. i started liking this guy at my church. AgH. i dont really know what to do. theres so many mixed messages he gives me, and i cant tell if hes only playing. which is one thing i may never understand about the male mind. and im sure they dont understand that part of ours either. all i know is that theres rumors floating that he does like me, but theres also considerable evidence that he doesnt. i need to get things straight. prayer is welcomed. i hope i havent hurt anyone...
love, anna
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Ugh.
Do you ever have those just ugh days??? Its Thursday. Im waiting for it to be friday. Me and David had the first "just me and you" rehearsal today...that went...well i wanted it to be better lets say.
first off, i have a fear of my head voice...they say, "embrace it!" well i cant very well embrace it if i dont like it can i?
Me and David are getting along nicely i think. its going to take me a little while to get used to the fact that he's my "fiance" and he keeps egging me on to not feel so uncomfortable around him when we're doing couple scenes. im working on it. but its hard to picture him as ANYTHING more than a friend.
i wanted a challenge and thats what i got. the SAME verse has been reappearing to my life for the past week! i think its in Jeremiah. "Only i know the plans i have for you. Plans to give you hope and a future, for you to prosper" or something like that. So i believe God is going to teach me in this situation
Prayers are appreciated.
Tomorrow i have a rehearsal with Kim (Carly) Conrad (Sam) and Albert (David). Then straight after, a rehearsal with youth band. wish me luck!
first off, i have a fear of my head voice...they say, "embrace it!" well i cant very well embrace it if i dont like it can i?
Me and David are getting along nicely i think. its going to take me a little while to get used to the fact that he's my "fiance" and he keeps egging me on to not feel so uncomfortable around him when we're doing couple scenes. im working on it. but its hard to picture him as ANYTHING more than a friend.
i wanted a challenge and thats what i got. the SAME verse has been reappearing to my life for the past week! i think its in Jeremiah. "Only i know the plans i have for you. Plans to give you hope and a future, for you to prosper" or something like that. So i believe God is going to teach me in this situation
Prayers are appreciated.
Tomorrow i have a rehearsal with Kim (Carly) Conrad (Sam) and Albert (David). Then straight after, a rehearsal with youth band. wish me luck!
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Sundays.
I absolutely adore Sundays.
First off, its the Lord's Day! I dont know what id want more than to stand in his presence. Better is one day in his courts than a thousand elsewhere.
Second, i get to go to youth band! Will, Seth, Jona, Josh, Mark, and Britney. Those six people absolutely put me at peace. i can be myself around them always and i never feel any pressure. we're performing at youth group tomorrow and at church on the 14th of this month. God has sent these people to me...i would for real be pretty lost without them to brighten up my week.
Let me tell you about me and my love-hate relationship with my church. I was dedicated to a church in Nashville, then we moved here to New City Fellowship when i was really little. i grew up with all these people who taught me right from wrong, how to live. Our church is kind of...well...to say the least...different. To start, its in a basketball gym. We put a tarp down and have basketball nets over our heads...i was always really embarassed to bring my friends to church cuz it wasnt as nice as theirs... another thing is that we are very charismatic...when i was little i never really participated in alot of it. i thought it was kind of weird...but accepted it as normal behavior because i never really knew anything else. As i got older i began to resent church. i didnt like sitting in the sermons cuz they were SO LONG. i thought they would never end. i tried to listen to my pastor...but he just did not excite me. The years after that are kind of a blur. I remember not going to church as much (or i guess i just dont remember it) but i started to go to Grace Church, a church for the newly committed to Christ. THAT excited me. i was always asking my mom if we could go to Grace instead of our church but she didnt really like it much... It wasnt till about 6th grade that i began to appreciate my church. it came in little doses. i went every once in a while and it just kinda grew on me. by 8th grade i was in love with it. I absolutely adored the music and the lyrics and how we sang in different languages. I still wasnt so content with my pastors sermons, but i got what i could out of it. What brought on this change of thought you ask? i believe it was the school i went to. The school attached to Grace Church. My teachers taught me and showed me that God wanted to be involved in my life. I got a new excitment about God that i hadnt experienced before. We had chapel at that school and my 8th grade teacher really opened up my eyes to God and made me want everything that i did to glorify him. She made it so that i had fun during sermons. Then we got an amazing new assistant pastor who is hilarious and really opens my eyes to Christ as well. Finally, i got involved with youth band and youth group, which brings us to the present. I'm absolutely in love with my church. i cant wait for the day i get to go back. Worshipping the Lord is where i belong.
So when i look back at it. I realize the thing, i was brought up in a church for believers that have been believers for a looong time. Whereas Grace is for believers that are just getting started and need motivation. As for where you worship, the church isnt the building. Never in the Bible did anyone say the church was the building. They referred to the church as a body of people. whereever God's people are, there the church is. God could care less where you worship. He only pays attention to the fact that youre honoring him.
I am blessed.
Love you New City.
Until tomorrow,
Anna.
First off, its the Lord's Day! I dont know what id want more than to stand in his presence. Better is one day in his courts than a thousand elsewhere.
Second, i get to go to youth band! Will, Seth, Jona, Josh, Mark, and Britney. Those six people absolutely put me at peace. i can be myself around them always and i never feel any pressure. we're performing at youth group tomorrow and at church on the 14th of this month. God has sent these people to me...i would for real be pretty lost without them to brighten up my week.
Let me tell you about me and my love-hate relationship with my church. I was dedicated to a church in Nashville, then we moved here to New City Fellowship when i was really little. i grew up with all these people who taught me right from wrong, how to live. Our church is kind of...well...to say the least...different. To start, its in a basketball gym. We put a tarp down and have basketball nets over our heads...i was always really embarassed to bring my friends to church cuz it wasnt as nice as theirs... another thing is that we are very charismatic...when i was little i never really participated in alot of it. i thought it was kind of weird...but accepted it as normal behavior because i never really knew anything else. As i got older i began to resent church. i didnt like sitting in the sermons cuz they were SO LONG. i thought they would never end. i tried to listen to my pastor...but he just did not excite me. The years after that are kind of a blur. I remember not going to church as much (or i guess i just dont remember it) but i started to go to Grace Church, a church for the newly committed to Christ. THAT excited me. i was always asking my mom if we could go to Grace instead of our church but she didnt really like it much... It wasnt till about 6th grade that i began to appreciate my church. it came in little doses. i went every once in a while and it just kinda grew on me. by 8th grade i was in love with it. I absolutely adored the music and the lyrics and how we sang in different languages. I still wasnt so content with my pastors sermons, but i got what i could out of it. What brought on this change of thought you ask? i believe it was the school i went to. The school attached to Grace Church. My teachers taught me and showed me that God wanted to be involved in my life. I got a new excitment about God that i hadnt experienced before. We had chapel at that school and my 8th grade teacher really opened up my eyes to God and made me want everything that i did to glorify him. She made it so that i had fun during sermons. Then we got an amazing new assistant pastor who is hilarious and really opens my eyes to Christ as well. Finally, i got involved with youth band and youth group, which brings us to the present. I'm absolutely in love with my church. i cant wait for the day i get to go back. Worshipping the Lord is where i belong.
So when i look back at it. I realize the thing, i was brought up in a church for believers that have been believers for a looong time. Whereas Grace is for believers that are just getting started and need motivation. As for where you worship, the church isnt the building. Never in the Bible did anyone say the church was the building. They referred to the church as a body of people. whereever God's people are, there the church is. God could care less where you worship. He only pays attention to the fact that youre honoring him.
I am blessed.
Love you New City.
Until tomorrow,
Anna.
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Started it!
Hi, my name is Anna. Or thats what im going to tell you it is... Muahahaha.
I started my freshmen year off bumpy. My dad lost his job. i came from a teeny tiny Christian Middle school (40 kids in the whole middleschool, 10 people in my grad class. all girls) and came to a school with 3,000 kids. 600-somethin in my freshmen class. Hard transition much?
It was kinda hard i guess. i went from having a 4.0 to a 3.8 so im working on that. and my best friend kind of deserted me....she went off with the popular people, but of course i survived cuz everyone back at the middle school predicted we'd go separate ways. Her to the volleyball/sports people, me to the theatre/music/out there people. And that prediction quickly became reality. We went our separate ways.
Now what did i do to get so involved and find my place? well the truth is ive only half found it. Ive been in theatre for about 9 years you see. Breaking my back for something that wouldnt patch me up in the end. kinda like my past relationships...but thats another story. im talking about my theatre career. At the beginning of highschool i told myself i was going to change. No more theatergeek. Fate had other plans. I saw the tryout sheet for The Diary of Anne Frank. I said to myself "Oh what the heck...ill just sign up and not go. To clear my concience." HA. That didnt work. Little did i know i was getting myself into a big adventure. I went to the audition thinking, "Let's just have some fun with it. I know im not going to get in, so why not do it just for an adrenaline rush." Thats half of what i do theatre for. The feelings. The adrenaline of the lights shining on my face...the depressed hopelessness i get afterward...and how close the cast gets to eachother. i get to have another family besides my own. I auditioned and it was fun! after 9 years of auditions, this was the FIRST i had fun with. So i left feeling epowered...but not knowing what the next day would bring...and i thought i was done with it. HA. I got a callback... so now the thoughts were "It's only a callback...oh come on." The callbacks were so fun! Then i looked at the cast list that night, just see how everyone else faired. "Margot Frank- Anna Pirrie" ...............WHAT THE HECK. So thats how i got dragged into one of the best things that will happen to me in highschool. Entering a PLAY as a FRESHMEN. it was the best experience. Me and the cast got so close. there was only ten of us. They welcomed me like i was part of the family....it made me feel like i could belong. THEN after the play, i tried out for ByeBye Birdie cuz the play cast was like TRY OUT! so i did. Not expecting a big part (once again) cuz im a freshmen, and 200 people tried out for the musical...i got the LEAD. Rosie Alverez here i come.
That's not the end of my stories im sure. But that catches you up. So this is where i am now. I invite you to follow me on my long journey thoughout highschool. ill tell you about God and how he's bringing me through it. Also about my music career, and my theatre career. ill also let you in on some of my couple observances. aaand if your lucky, the experiences:) as of now, im single. Everything will pan out accodring to God's wonderful plan.
That's all for now. Love, Anna:)
I started my freshmen year off bumpy. My dad lost his job. i came from a teeny tiny Christian Middle school (40 kids in the whole middleschool, 10 people in my grad class. all girls) and came to a school with 3,000 kids. 600-somethin in my freshmen class. Hard transition much?
It was kinda hard i guess. i went from having a 4.0 to a 3.8 so im working on that. and my best friend kind of deserted me....she went off with the popular people, but of course i survived cuz everyone back at the middle school predicted we'd go separate ways. Her to the volleyball/sports people, me to the theatre/music/out there people. And that prediction quickly became reality. We went our separate ways.
Now what did i do to get so involved and find my place? well the truth is ive only half found it. Ive been in theatre for about 9 years you see. Breaking my back for something that wouldnt patch me up in the end. kinda like my past relationships...but thats another story. im talking about my theatre career. At the beginning of highschool i told myself i was going to change. No more theatergeek. Fate had other plans. I saw the tryout sheet for The Diary of Anne Frank. I said to myself "Oh what the heck...ill just sign up and not go. To clear my concience." HA. That didnt work. Little did i know i was getting myself into a big adventure. I went to the audition thinking, "Let's just have some fun with it. I know im not going to get in, so why not do it just for an adrenaline rush." Thats half of what i do theatre for. The feelings. The adrenaline of the lights shining on my face...the depressed hopelessness i get afterward...and how close the cast gets to eachother. i get to have another family besides my own. I auditioned and it was fun! after 9 years of auditions, this was the FIRST i had fun with. So i left feeling epowered...but not knowing what the next day would bring...and i thought i was done with it. HA. I got a callback... so now the thoughts were "It's only a callback...oh come on." The callbacks were so fun! Then i looked at the cast list that night, just see how everyone else faired. "Margot Frank- Anna Pirrie" ...............WHAT THE HECK. So thats how i got dragged into one of the best things that will happen to me in highschool. Entering a PLAY as a FRESHMEN. it was the best experience. Me and the cast got so close. there was only ten of us. They welcomed me like i was part of the family....it made me feel like i could belong. THEN after the play, i tried out for ByeBye Birdie cuz the play cast was like TRY OUT! so i did. Not expecting a big part (once again) cuz im a freshmen, and 200 people tried out for the musical...i got the LEAD. Rosie Alverez here i come.
That's not the end of my stories im sure. But that catches you up. So this is where i am now. I invite you to follow me on my long journey thoughout highschool. ill tell you about God and how he's bringing me through it. Also about my music career, and my theatre career. ill also let you in on some of my couple observances. aaand if your lucky, the experiences:) as of now, im single. Everything will pan out accodring to God's wonderful plan.
That's all for now. Love, Anna:)
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