What do i have to say about them? My thoughts are so scattered about the subject. Best Friends are the essence of love. First there's all the cliches: They're there for you when youre broken, they know how to make you laugh, they know all your deepest darkest secrets, you feel like you can tell them everything, they're a shoulder to cry on, a relief when you most need it, you can call them at 4 in the morning and cry and sob to them, they stick up for you when someone talks crap, and they love you for who you are.
However, most people don't voice some of the things not said about best friends. Best friends listen to you. Now, that may count as a chliche, but not when you think about it. There's a difference between hearing and listening. Hearing is when what someone says goes in your ears but youre so busy thinking about something else (what your going to say next or even something completely unrelated to the subject) that you dont give your full attention to them therefore you dont really care what they're saying. Now listening, is when youre percieveing what your friend is saying and you actually have something to say when they're done speaking thats not unrelated to the subject or about you. Best friends listen. they look you straight in the eye and listen to you. They give you advice thats completely unbiased.
Another thing is that they help you remember who you are. You could be off to new, bigger, better places, and one thing that will always be the same is your friends. You can change. I know that seems like it could NEVER EVER happen, but trust me, it does! Lol. Your best friends will tell you who you used to be. Its up to you whether you choose to be that person again or not.
Now when youre off to new, bigger, better places dont forget the people, the best friends, that shaped you. Your best friend doesnt have to be unrelated to you. You can also have more than one best friend. The point is that best friends give you love. Love is a natural part of nurturing. Something that shapes our development. The love you get from your best friend isnt something your mom could give you, not something your grandma could give you, your grandpa, your dad, or even your husband or boyfriend. God gives us this love for a purpose. Each best friend will help you through a specific something. What that something is? i have no idea. However, i hope what ive said gets you to thinking. My challenge to you? go tell your best friend you love them:)
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Sunday, December 26, 2010
It's The Little Things
Sometimes you notice its the little things in life that you can get the most out of. Right now, i'd like you to take a look at your life. what are the highlights? ok, now erase those from your mind for just a minute, and try to remember the last time you took pride in the little things of life.
I just spent two hours in a new place with some new people. Now, in about six months, that moment could become the start of a big highlight in my life, or a little thing. However, if this were any other night, i probably wouldve just shrugged that off and wouldnt have thought about how much this night could impact the next six months, and how it couldnt. But as i was sitting on the couch next to Sam Decker watching him play video games with his best friend, i thought "Now Anna, this is the first time you've met his family, met his friends, seen his house, everything. Is this the start of an adventure or a yellow brick road that just goes on and on and on?" then i looked around the circle of people...Akeem, Maggie, Ross, Hannah...then Sam. He has this look about him , you see. i have yet to figure it out though. (im one of those creepers who just has to figure everyone out, no matter who they are) Everyone has a word. I havent found his yet. Sensational? Exciting? Warm? Sweet? Gentle? Delightful? Fascinating? Original? Whimsical? ill let you know when i figure it out. And his word was all over his face at that moment. Conveniently enough, my reading skills had left me at that particular moment. His face was pink for some reason, but he was completely focused on his videogame and didnt notice me staring. Then i realized i was staring. Why? i have no idea. That's when it became a little thing.
Little things could consist of many categories. Some examples would be: little stares i get from people who like me, a bypasser in a foreign state seeing a moment shared by a couple, a smiley face on someone's back window of their car, smelling the flowers, stopping to watch a sunset by yourself, a bypasser seeing a father give his daughter a kiss, a man on the corner of the road playing his guitar like no one's watching.
So this little thing: catching myself stare at a green eyed boy, made me smile. I have no idea if i'll ever remember that moment. Either because there will be many more moments like that, or because it could get crowded by some other big highlight in my life. The little things in life are one thing God put on this earth to fill our never ending void of emptiness. It doesnt come by money, or a due paid, or pain. Its a feeling you cant replace. It may possibly be an aspect of love. on my Journey of discovering the meaning of Love? heres a footnote: What does love have to do with the little things? Love is every part of what God is teaching and giving you. Not just the lessons you learn in the highlights, but the comforting, sweet, wistful, whimsical....
little things.
I just spent two hours in a new place with some new people. Now, in about six months, that moment could become the start of a big highlight in my life, or a little thing. However, if this were any other night, i probably wouldve just shrugged that off and wouldnt have thought about how much this night could impact the next six months, and how it couldnt. But as i was sitting on the couch next to Sam Decker watching him play video games with his best friend, i thought "Now Anna, this is the first time you've met his family, met his friends, seen his house, everything. Is this the start of an adventure or a yellow brick road that just goes on and on and on?" then i looked around the circle of people...Akeem, Maggie, Ross, Hannah...then Sam. He has this look about him , you see. i have yet to figure it out though. (im one of those creepers who just has to figure everyone out, no matter who they are) Everyone has a word. I havent found his yet. Sensational? Exciting? Warm? Sweet? Gentle? Delightful? Fascinating? Original? Whimsical? ill let you know when i figure it out. And his word was all over his face at that moment. Conveniently enough, my reading skills had left me at that particular moment. His face was pink for some reason, but he was completely focused on his videogame and didnt notice me staring. Then i realized i was staring. Why? i have no idea. That's when it became a little thing.
Little things could consist of many categories. Some examples would be: little stares i get from people who like me, a bypasser in a foreign state seeing a moment shared by a couple, a smiley face on someone's back window of their car, smelling the flowers, stopping to watch a sunset by yourself, a bypasser seeing a father give his daughter a kiss, a man on the corner of the road playing his guitar like no one's watching.
So this little thing: catching myself stare at a green eyed boy, made me smile. I have no idea if i'll ever remember that moment. Either because there will be many more moments like that, or because it could get crowded by some other big highlight in my life. The little things in life are one thing God put on this earth to fill our never ending void of emptiness. It doesnt come by money, or a due paid, or pain. Its a feeling you cant replace. It may possibly be an aspect of love. on my Journey of discovering the meaning of Love? heres a footnote: What does love have to do with the little things? Love is every part of what God is teaching and giving you. Not just the lessons you learn in the highlights, but the comforting, sweet, wistful, whimsical....
little things.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Ghosts of Christmas Only Come Out On Christmas
We went through the motions. Snow on Christmas Eve morning, Christmas Eve Service with my Grandparents at their church, coins from Papa, go to sleep late Christmas Eve night, woke up at 7:45 this Christmas Morning to open presents, but we didnt actually open any till 8 because it took fifteen minutes to actually wake everyone up, answered Bible questions to open each present, had crepes for breakfast, proceeded to play with our Christmas presents for about three or four hours afterwards, then finally, an addition to Christmas traditions, went to our dearest friends the Owens's house for dinner.
Christmas Eve services at E-free are touching, mainly because its the first reference we get to the real meaning of Christmas. We light candles at the end of the service. The significance i see in this is that they re-use the candles every year so they're pretty beat down. This represents the world. Then we light the candle, and the fire represents Jesus Christ, God's Son, the light of the world. Something absolutely flawless. Now the fire is put on an old beat up (used to be new and fresh) candle. God sent something so pure, something He loved with all His heart, to shed light on an unworthy world. We dont deserve what He sent to us. This is the meaning of Christmas.
We wake up so early. This is a tradition i try, but always fail to change, every year. However, i never not have an answer to the Bible questions I'm asked. I open my presents pretty quick. But the reason we do this is so that we can appreciate the presents more i guess. Its also very fun.
The Owens's are one of God's many blessings to our family. The reason we hang around them so much is because their family is almost symmetric to ours. Heres my illustration:
Dad--Mr Owens
Mom--Ms Owens
Gabby--Katy
Anna--Megan
Joseph--James
William--Ashleigh
Michael-- Lauren/Alex
We all have best friends in this family. We grew up together. Id like to pause for a moment and admire my best friend Megan Owens. This beautiful, stylish, spunky, poised, loyal young woman of God has been there for me since the beginning. We've seen eachother grow up, seen eachother through our ugly times, our wrong choices, and we love each other through them. Honestly, she's seen all my phases. She knows me better than i know myself. We're comfortable enough to just tell eachother when we're being stupid. i can be a kid again when im with her. We have entirely too much fun together. i love you Meg:)
This Christmas i got to know a boy, whom has taught me many things, and many more to come. I'm looking forward to the next few months with him, and im confident he'll be a part of my journey. This Christmas was simpler, but absolutely so much more complex and meaningful. this Christmas came more with hugs, kisses, kind words, and meaningful stares, more than wrapping paper, bows, and ribbons. Happy Birthday Jesus, in a Christmas soon to come, i hope we'll be with You celebrating Your birthday. To sing our traditional hymns in a new light, with a sweet angel harmony behind our melody. To dance in your presence, to play a song that would melt Your heart as You have melted mine.
Christmas Eve services at E-free are touching, mainly because its the first reference we get to the real meaning of Christmas. We light candles at the end of the service. The significance i see in this is that they re-use the candles every year so they're pretty beat down. This represents the world. Then we light the candle, and the fire represents Jesus Christ, God's Son, the light of the world. Something absolutely flawless. Now the fire is put on an old beat up (used to be new and fresh) candle. God sent something so pure, something He loved with all His heart, to shed light on an unworthy world. We dont deserve what He sent to us. This is the meaning of Christmas.
We wake up so early. This is a tradition i try, but always fail to change, every year. However, i never not have an answer to the Bible questions I'm asked. I open my presents pretty quick. But the reason we do this is so that we can appreciate the presents more i guess. Its also very fun.
The Owens's are one of God's many blessings to our family. The reason we hang around them so much is because their family is almost symmetric to ours. Heres my illustration:
Dad--Mr Owens
Mom--Ms Owens
Gabby--Katy
Anna--Megan
Joseph--James
William--Ashleigh
Michael-- Lauren/Alex
We all have best friends in this family. We grew up together. Id like to pause for a moment and admire my best friend Megan Owens. This beautiful, stylish, spunky, poised, loyal young woman of God has been there for me since the beginning. We've seen eachother grow up, seen eachother through our ugly times, our wrong choices, and we love each other through them. Honestly, she's seen all my phases. She knows me better than i know myself. We're comfortable enough to just tell eachother when we're being stupid. i can be a kid again when im with her. We have entirely too much fun together. i love you Meg:)
This Christmas i got to know a boy, whom has taught me many things, and many more to come. I'm looking forward to the next few months with him, and im confident he'll be a part of my journey. This Christmas was simpler, but absolutely so much more complex and meaningful. this Christmas came more with hugs, kisses, kind words, and meaningful stares, more than wrapping paper, bows, and ribbons. Happy Birthday Jesus, in a Christmas soon to come, i hope we'll be with You celebrating Your birthday. To sing our traditional hymns in a new light, with a sweet angel harmony behind our melody. To dance in your presence, to play a song that would melt Your heart as You have melted mine.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
The Fork in the Road is Farther Away Than You Think
so, heres my vision for where i was: me on a long unpaved road but im at a fork in the road. i have to choose which path to to take.
now i realize? whats the real picture? :me on a long unpaved road about 22miles from the fork in the road.
now, some of you may know what i mean. for those of you that dont, ill tell you.
i thought that i had to make a choice right at this very second. i had to do it as soooooon as possible or everything would go wrong. With the help of a little common sense, and some advice from my friend Andrew Schaaf, we realized that i didnt know enough about the two roads i was coming upon. i dont know what they look like, what kind of twists and turns they'll lead me on, or which one is best for me because i havent found enough out about them. i have a problem with going with the flow when it comes to these things. i havent quite gotten my bearings on how it goes.
Have any of you ever had a specific connection with music? i feel like music is one of those things that brings me back to reality, and at the same time taking me off somewhere else than where i want to be at that moment. (that wording is terrible but whatever ha) ive been writing alot of songs about these things, but i have yet to write one about my choices. i want it to be something that will help girls decide what to do. to give them some comfort that everyone goes through this sometimes. they arent alone. ill let you know when im done writing it. ill also keep you posted on my choice.
now i realize? whats the real picture? :me on a long unpaved road about 22miles from the fork in the road.
now, some of you may know what i mean. for those of you that dont, ill tell you.
i thought that i had to make a choice right at this very second. i had to do it as soooooon as possible or everything would go wrong. With the help of a little common sense, and some advice from my friend Andrew Schaaf, we realized that i didnt know enough about the two roads i was coming upon. i dont know what they look like, what kind of twists and turns they'll lead me on, or which one is best for me because i havent found enough out about them. i have a problem with going with the flow when it comes to these things. i havent quite gotten my bearings on how it goes.
Have any of you ever had a specific connection with music? i feel like music is one of those things that brings me back to reality, and at the same time taking me off somewhere else than where i want to be at that moment. (that wording is terrible but whatever ha) ive been writing alot of songs about these things, but i have yet to write one about my choices. i want it to be something that will help girls decide what to do. to give them some comfort that everyone goes through this sometimes. they arent alone. ill let you know when im done writing it. ill also keep you posted on my choice.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
A Day of Choice
So, my life is at a slow-mo point. i thought things were starting to move a little faster, but it turns out i was a bit too excited too early. I just dont know when to get my hopes up anymore. or if ever to get my hopes up in the first place. It seems as though nothing is happening for a purpose. Yes, i know God does everything for a specific reason, but im just not seeing it yet. and, Quite frankfly, its bothering me... i dont know what i should do, where or to whom i should turn, or when to do it. i dont know what God is teaching me anymore.... is it patience? is it faith? is it self control and perseverance? i need something that will open my eyes. so i can see clearly what path i am to take.
This whole musical thing is now taking its tole. i feel like i have no idea why my directors cast me as the leading lady... i feel as though ive done nothing right... all they do is criticize. which i welcome! i love to learn. however, it would be nice to hear some encouraging words every once in a while... im finding refuge in a few people. not many, but a few. and day by day, my connection is getting weaker with some people... God will lead me through. how he will do it? is beyond me of course.
This whole musical thing is now taking its tole. i feel like i have no idea why my directors cast me as the leading lady... i feel as though ive done nothing right... all they do is criticize. which i welcome! i love to learn. however, it would be nice to hear some encouraging words every once in a while... im finding refuge in a few people. not many, but a few. and day by day, my connection is getting weaker with some people... God will lead me through. how he will do it? is beyond me of course.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Why life sucks? I have no idea.
So, my family has this thing.
Me and my siblings all mature ten times faster than other children our age. Some of us more physically than others, but all of us mature mentally and emotionally way faster than other children. Why? im not really sure. But its good sometimes, then other times its bad.
Last night i went to my best friend's house. Jenna is 18, and JUST GOT ENGAGED! I'm so happy for her and her fiance Stephen. Anyways, she threw a party for her coming back from Texas, and i was, of course, younger than everyone there by at least three years. However, i felt like one of the oldest! Now, this isnt exactly a bad thing. it may just mean that the people there were just having fun with life! The point is, years dont exactly matter. things like experience, observation, God's given wisdom, level of maturity, etc. are really the things that matter.
However, there are some times when I get to learn something. those times really open my eyes, and im glad for them.
That guy i was talking about? God is currently using him to teach me something. Of course, i wont know the full lesson once this is all over, but i will learn. We talked today. He likes me too (supposedly) but he's not ready for a relationship. I TOTALLY respect that. he gave me good reason. But, at the time, i was like, "come on now. really?" it wasnt till the end of the conversation that i really realized what he did. He listened to God.
Now you could be thinking, "wow anna. Thats not really a hard lesson to be given." or, you could be thinking, "I KNOW HOW THAT FEELS." Listening to God is a hard thing. especially at the age of fifteen. especially especially when youre dealing with a guy/girl situation. I had to listen to God a couple weeks ago for the exact same thing. (i fell for a non-christian and he asked me out and i had EVERY INTENTION of going out with him. But when the time came for me to answer the question, God was in my ear so strong that i just couldnt resist listening to Him. However, not without difficulty. i mean, how easy would it be for YOU to turn down a gorgeous, intelligent, smooth guy who's dancing with you at that particular moment with his lips ever so sweetly brushing against your ear as he asks the question????)
This guy i was talking about, turned me down, while he supposedly still liked me. Having that kind of connection with God inspires me. Its exactly what im looking for in a guy. (which made it even more heartbreaking...but thats not important.) And not even in a guy, but just a friend. someone to hold you accountable for your actions concerning God's plans for you. I want this in my life. To see someone my age, prioritizing the RIGHT things puts a smile in my heart. God shines through your face (this guy). As i said. I want someone like you to hold my heart...to teach it your ways. If its with you, and you are with God, then so am i. I always have been with God. But i feel like i could be even closer to him. I want to learn more. To confide in someone about the problems im going through. someone who may actually have answers for a change. Im proud of you. God is proud of you. And in time, if God wills it so, He may be proud of us.
Me and my siblings all mature ten times faster than other children our age. Some of us more physically than others, but all of us mature mentally and emotionally way faster than other children. Why? im not really sure. But its good sometimes, then other times its bad.
Last night i went to my best friend's house. Jenna is 18, and JUST GOT ENGAGED! I'm so happy for her and her fiance Stephen. Anyways, she threw a party for her coming back from Texas, and i was, of course, younger than everyone there by at least three years. However, i felt like one of the oldest! Now, this isnt exactly a bad thing. it may just mean that the people there were just having fun with life! The point is, years dont exactly matter. things like experience, observation, God's given wisdom, level of maturity, etc. are really the things that matter.
However, there are some times when I get to learn something. those times really open my eyes, and im glad for them.
That guy i was talking about? God is currently using him to teach me something. Of course, i wont know the full lesson once this is all over, but i will learn. We talked today. He likes me too (supposedly) but he's not ready for a relationship. I TOTALLY respect that. he gave me good reason. But, at the time, i was like, "come on now. really?" it wasnt till the end of the conversation that i really realized what he did. He listened to God.
Now you could be thinking, "wow anna. Thats not really a hard lesson to be given." or, you could be thinking, "I KNOW HOW THAT FEELS." Listening to God is a hard thing. especially at the age of fifteen. especially especially when youre dealing with a guy/girl situation. I had to listen to God a couple weeks ago for the exact same thing. (i fell for a non-christian and he asked me out and i had EVERY INTENTION of going out with him. But when the time came for me to answer the question, God was in my ear so strong that i just couldnt resist listening to Him. However, not without difficulty. i mean, how easy would it be for YOU to turn down a gorgeous, intelligent, smooth guy who's dancing with you at that particular moment with his lips ever so sweetly brushing against your ear as he asks the question????)
This guy i was talking about, turned me down, while he supposedly still liked me. Having that kind of connection with God inspires me. Its exactly what im looking for in a guy. (which made it even more heartbreaking...but thats not important.) And not even in a guy, but just a friend. someone to hold you accountable for your actions concerning God's plans for you. I want this in my life. To see someone my age, prioritizing the RIGHT things puts a smile in my heart. God shines through your face (this guy). As i said. I want someone like you to hold my heart...to teach it your ways. If its with you, and you are with God, then so am i. I always have been with God. But i feel like i could be even closer to him. I want to learn more. To confide in someone about the problems im going through. someone who may actually have answers for a change. Im proud of you. God is proud of you. And in time, if God wills it so, He may be proud of us.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Me? ha...funny story.
Teenage love interests are an interesting thing.
ive always been drawn to help people, know their problems, help them realize the lessons God is teaching them through their individual relationships. When i got to highschool i completely let people know i was there for them. i asked them how they were and they would tell me. i would tell them my opinion on the situation, and use the wisdom God has blessed me with. All i want is for people to be happy, while theyre doing the right thing.
Now, some people may say "so ill bet youre really good with your own relationships!" that is more or less true. For example, im going through a relationship right now that hasnt really started yet. i analyze things entirely too much. which the average person doesnt do. i was determined not to get hurt. this whole year has been full of heartbreak for me. i havent had a successful relationship in highschool yet, i must say. a few weeks ago i decided to not date people at school. outside of school is where relationships belong. i started liking this guy at my church. AgH. i dont really know what to do. theres so many mixed messages he gives me, and i cant tell if hes only playing. which is one thing i may never understand about the male mind. and im sure they dont understand that part of ours either. all i know is that theres rumors floating that he does like me, but theres also considerable evidence that he doesnt. i need to get things straight. prayer is welcomed. i hope i havent hurt anyone...
love, anna
ive always been drawn to help people, know their problems, help them realize the lessons God is teaching them through their individual relationships. When i got to highschool i completely let people know i was there for them. i asked them how they were and they would tell me. i would tell them my opinion on the situation, and use the wisdom God has blessed me with. All i want is for people to be happy, while theyre doing the right thing.
Now, some people may say "so ill bet youre really good with your own relationships!" that is more or less true. For example, im going through a relationship right now that hasnt really started yet. i analyze things entirely too much. which the average person doesnt do. i was determined not to get hurt. this whole year has been full of heartbreak for me. i havent had a successful relationship in highschool yet, i must say. a few weeks ago i decided to not date people at school. outside of school is where relationships belong. i started liking this guy at my church. AgH. i dont really know what to do. theres so many mixed messages he gives me, and i cant tell if hes only playing. which is one thing i may never understand about the male mind. and im sure they dont understand that part of ours either. all i know is that theres rumors floating that he does like me, but theres also considerable evidence that he doesnt. i need to get things straight. prayer is welcomed. i hope i havent hurt anyone...
love, anna
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Ugh.
Do you ever have those just ugh days??? Its Thursday. Im waiting for it to be friday. Me and David had the first "just me and you" rehearsal today...that went...well i wanted it to be better lets say.
first off, i have a fear of my head voice...they say, "embrace it!" well i cant very well embrace it if i dont like it can i?
Me and David are getting along nicely i think. its going to take me a little while to get used to the fact that he's my "fiance" and he keeps egging me on to not feel so uncomfortable around him when we're doing couple scenes. im working on it. but its hard to picture him as ANYTHING more than a friend.
i wanted a challenge and thats what i got. the SAME verse has been reappearing to my life for the past week! i think its in Jeremiah. "Only i know the plans i have for you. Plans to give you hope and a future, for you to prosper" or something like that. So i believe God is going to teach me in this situation
Prayers are appreciated.
Tomorrow i have a rehearsal with Kim (Carly) Conrad (Sam) and Albert (David). Then straight after, a rehearsal with youth band. wish me luck!
first off, i have a fear of my head voice...they say, "embrace it!" well i cant very well embrace it if i dont like it can i?
Me and David are getting along nicely i think. its going to take me a little while to get used to the fact that he's my "fiance" and he keeps egging me on to not feel so uncomfortable around him when we're doing couple scenes. im working on it. but its hard to picture him as ANYTHING more than a friend.
i wanted a challenge and thats what i got. the SAME verse has been reappearing to my life for the past week! i think its in Jeremiah. "Only i know the plans i have for you. Plans to give you hope and a future, for you to prosper" or something like that. So i believe God is going to teach me in this situation
Prayers are appreciated.
Tomorrow i have a rehearsal with Kim (Carly) Conrad (Sam) and Albert (David). Then straight after, a rehearsal with youth band. wish me luck!
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Sundays.
I absolutely adore Sundays.
First off, its the Lord's Day! I dont know what id want more than to stand in his presence. Better is one day in his courts than a thousand elsewhere.
Second, i get to go to youth band! Will, Seth, Jona, Josh, Mark, and Britney. Those six people absolutely put me at peace. i can be myself around them always and i never feel any pressure. we're performing at youth group tomorrow and at church on the 14th of this month. God has sent these people to me...i would for real be pretty lost without them to brighten up my week.
Let me tell you about me and my love-hate relationship with my church. I was dedicated to a church in Nashville, then we moved here to New City Fellowship when i was really little. i grew up with all these people who taught me right from wrong, how to live. Our church is kind of...well...to say the least...different. To start, its in a basketball gym. We put a tarp down and have basketball nets over our heads...i was always really embarassed to bring my friends to church cuz it wasnt as nice as theirs... another thing is that we are very charismatic...when i was little i never really participated in alot of it. i thought it was kind of weird...but accepted it as normal behavior because i never really knew anything else. As i got older i began to resent church. i didnt like sitting in the sermons cuz they were SO LONG. i thought they would never end. i tried to listen to my pastor...but he just did not excite me. The years after that are kind of a blur. I remember not going to church as much (or i guess i just dont remember it) but i started to go to Grace Church, a church for the newly committed to Christ. THAT excited me. i was always asking my mom if we could go to Grace instead of our church but she didnt really like it much... It wasnt till about 6th grade that i began to appreciate my church. it came in little doses. i went every once in a while and it just kinda grew on me. by 8th grade i was in love with it. I absolutely adored the music and the lyrics and how we sang in different languages. I still wasnt so content with my pastors sermons, but i got what i could out of it. What brought on this change of thought you ask? i believe it was the school i went to. The school attached to Grace Church. My teachers taught me and showed me that God wanted to be involved in my life. I got a new excitment about God that i hadnt experienced before. We had chapel at that school and my 8th grade teacher really opened up my eyes to God and made me want everything that i did to glorify him. She made it so that i had fun during sermons. Then we got an amazing new assistant pastor who is hilarious and really opens my eyes to Christ as well. Finally, i got involved with youth band and youth group, which brings us to the present. I'm absolutely in love with my church. i cant wait for the day i get to go back. Worshipping the Lord is where i belong.
So when i look back at it. I realize the thing, i was brought up in a church for believers that have been believers for a looong time. Whereas Grace is for believers that are just getting started and need motivation. As for where you worship, the church isnt the building. Never in the Bible did anyone say the church was the building. They referred to the church as a body of people. whereever God's people are, there the church is. God could care less where you worship. He only pays attention to the fact that youre honoring him.
I am blessed.
Love you New City.
Until tomorrow,
Anna.
First off, its the Lord's Day! I dont know what id want more than to stand in his presence. Better is one day in his courts than a thousand elsewhere.
Second, i get to go to youth band! Will, Seth, Jona, Josh, Mark, and Britney. Those six people absolutely put me at peace. i can be myself around them always and i never feel any pressure. we're performing at youth group tomorrow and at church on the 14th of this month. God has sent these people to me...i would for real be pretty lost without them to brighten up my week.
Let me tell you about me and my love-hate relationship with my church. I was dedicated to a church in Nashville, then we moved here to New City Fellowship when i was really little. i grew up with all these people who taught me right from wrong, how to live. Our church is kind of...well...to say the least...different. To start, its in a basketball gym. We put a tarp down and have basketball nets over our heads...i was always really embarassed to bring my friends to church cuz it wasnt as nice as theirs... another thing is that we are very charismatic...when i was little i never really participated in alot of it. i thought it was kind of weird...but accepted it as normal behavior because i never really knew anything else. As i got older i began to resent church. i didnt like sitting in the sermons cuz they were SO LONG. i thought they would never end. i tried to listen to my pastor...but he just did not excite me. The years after that are kind of a blur. I remember not going to church as much (or i guess i just dont remember it) but i started to go to Grace Church, a church for the newly committed to Christ. THAT excited me. i was always asking my mom if we could go to Grace instead of our church but she didnt really like it much... It wasnt till about 6th grade that i began to appreciate my church. it came in little doses. i went every once in a while and it just kinda grew on me. by 8th grade i was in love with it. I absolutely adored the music and the lyrics and how we sang in different languages. I still wasnt so content with my pastors sermons, but i got what i could out of it. What brought on this change of thought you ask? i believe it was the school i went to. The school attached to Grace Church. My teachers taught me and showed me that God wanted to be involved in my life. I got a new excitment about God that i hadnt experienced before. We had chapel at that school and my 8th grade teacher really opened up my eyes to God and made me want everything that i did to glorify him. She made it so that i had fun during sermons. Then we got an amazing new assistant pastor who is hilarious and really opens my eyes to Christ as well. Finally, i got involved with youth band and youth group, which brings us to the present. I'm absolutely in love with my church. i cant wait for the day i get to go back. Worshipping the Lord is where i belong.
So when i look back at it. I realize the thing, i was brought up in a church for believers that have been believers for a looong time. Whereas Grace is for believers that are just getting started and need motivation. As for where you worship, the church isnt the building. Never in the Bible did anyone say the church was the building. They referred to the church as a body of people. whereever God's people are, there the church is. God could care less where you worship. He only pays attention to the fact that youre honoring him.
I am blessed.
Love you New City.
Until tomorrow,
Anna.
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Started it!
Hi, my name is Anna. Or thats what im going to tell you it is... Muahahaha.
I started my freshmen year off bumpy. My dad lost his job. i came from a teeny tiny Christian Middle school (40 kids in the whole middleschool, 10 people in my grad class. all girls) and came to a school with 3,000 kids. 600-somethin in my freshmen class. Hard transition much?
It was kinda hard i guess. i went from having a 4.0 to a 3.8 so im working on that. and my best friend kind of deserted me....she went off with the popular people, but of course i survived cuz everyone back at the middle school predicted we'd go separate ways. Her to the volleyball/sports people, me to the theatre/music/out there people. And that prediction quickly became reality. We went our separate ways.
Now what did i do to get so involved and find my place? well the truth is ive only half found it. Ive been in theatre for about 9 years you see. Breaking my back for something that wouldnt patch me up in the end. kinda like my past relationships...but thats another story. im talking about my theatre career. At the beginning of highschool i told myself i was going to change. No more theatergeek. Fate had other plans. I saw the tryout sheet for The Diary of Anne Frank. I said to myself "Oh what the heck...ill just sign up and not go. To clear my concience." HA. That didnt work. Little did i know i was getting myself into a big adventure. I went to the audition thinking, "Let's just have some fun with it. I know im not going to get in, so why not do it just for an adrenaline rush." Thats half of what i do theatre for. The feelings. The adrenaline of the lights shining on my face...the depressed hopelessness i get afterward...and how close the cast gets to eachother. i get to have another family besides my own. I auditioned and it was fun! after 9 years of auditions, this was the FIRST i had fun with. So i left feeling epowered...but not knowing what the next day would bring...and i thought i was done with it. HA. I got a callback... so now the thoughts were "It's only a callback...oh come on." The callbacks were so fun! Then i looked at the cast list that night, just see how everyone else faired. "Margot Frank- Anna Pirrie" ...............WHAT THE HECK. So thats how i got dragged into one of the best things that will happen to me in highschool. Entering a PLAY as a FRESHMEN. it was the best experience. Me and the cast got so close. there was only ten of us. They welcomed me like i was part of the family....it made me feel like i could belong. THEN after the play, i tried out for ByeBye Birdie cuz the play cast was like TRY OUT! so i did. Not expecting a big part (once again) cuz im a freshmen, and 200 people tried out for the musical...i got the LEAD. Rosie Alverez here i come.
That's not the end of my stories im sure. But that catches you up. So this is where i am now. I invite you to follow me on my long journey thoughout highschool. ill tell you about God and how he's bringing me through it. Also about my music career, and my theatre career. ill also let you in on some of my couple observances. aaand if your lucky, the experiences:) as of now, im single. Everything will pan out accodring to God's wonderful plan.
That's all for now. Love, Anna:)
I started my freshmen year off bumpy. My dad lost his job. i came from a teeny tiny Christian Middle school (40 kids in the whole middleschool, 10 people in my grad class. all girls) and came to a school with 3,000 kids. 600-somethin in my freshmen class. Hard transition much?
It was kinda hard i guess. i went from having a 4.0 to a 3.8 so im working on that. and my best friend kind of deserted me....she went off with the popular people, but of course i survived cuz everyone back at the middle school predicted we'd go separate ways. Her to the volleyball/sports people, me to the theatre/music/out there people. And that prediction quickly became reality. We went our separate ways.
Now what did i do to get so involved and find my place? well the truth is ive only half found it. Ive been in theatre for about 9 years you see. Breaking my back for something that wouldnt patch me up in the end. kinda like my past relationships...but thats another story. im talking about my theatre career. At the beginning of highschool i told myself i was going to change. No more theatergeek. Fate had other plans. I saw the tryout sheet for The Diary of Anne Frank. I said to myself "Oh what the heck...ill just sign up and not go. To clear my concience." HA. That didnt work. Little did i know i was getting myself into a big adventure. I went to the audition thinking, "Let's just have some fun with it. I know im not going to get in, so why not do it just for an adrenaline rush." Thats half of what i do theatre for. The feelings. The adrenaline of the lights shining on my face...the depressed hopelessness i get afterward...and how close the cast gets to eachother. i get to have another family besides my own. I auditioned and it was fun! after 9 years of auditions, this was the FIRST i had fun with. So i left feeling epowered...but not knowing what the next day would bring...and i thought i was done with it. HA. I got a callback... so now the thoughts were "It's only a callback...oh come on." The callbacks were so fun! Then i looked at the cast list that night, just see how everyone else faired. "Margot Frank- Anna Pirrie" ...............WHAT THE HECK. So thats how i got dragged into one of the best things that will happen to me in highschool. Entering a PLAY as a FRESHMEN. it was the best experience. Me and the cast got so close. there was only ten of us. They welcomed me like i was part of the family....it made me feel like i could belong. THEN after the play, i tried out for ByeBye Birdie cuz the play cast was like TRY OUT! so i did. Not expecting a big part (once again) cuz im a freshmen, and 200 people tried out for the musical...i got the LEAD. Rosie Alverez here i come.
That's not the end of my stories im sure. But that catches you up. So this is where i am now. I invite you to follow me on my long journey thoughout highschool. ill tell you about God and how he's bringing me through it. Also about my music career, and my theatre career. ill also let you in on some of my couple observances. aaand if your lucky, the experiences:) as of now, im single. Everything will pan out accodring to God's wonderful plan.
That's all for now. Love, Anna:)
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